Of yourself to yourself

It is a non trivial question that comes up from time to time in unconstructive situations. Thinking of it, seems to me like we’re generally preoccupied and driven by our status. I actually think its a good thing but, in my opinion, we mostly focus on a few things and totally neglect others. Money and self image predominate while I tend to focus on what matters to me about myself.

Its an amazing change in priorities and perspective when one tries to impress himself, not others. I for one am more demanding of myself than anyone else, if I am honest. I also care about basic stuff like health, pushing my personal physical limits, patience and resilience, etc. I find it deeply disturbing to linger on a personal level while satisfying my public image so much so that I mostly opted out of social stuff. Now, if I do something, it must be because I really want to do it for myself because otherwise nobody will be there to see it and pet my ego.